Before going to bed...

The past few months have been off.

I’ve loved, lost, wanted, had, gotten over.
I’m different now.

Shorter hair, new girlfriend, still want him, but not his penis.
Lost some friends, got a few back.

I’m happy right now I guess.
I’m still questioning my relationship.
I hope it works out though, because I really care about her.
she makes me happy.

My heart has been hurting lately though.

And I’ve realized I have an off balance happiness equilibrium with my friends.
When I’m happy, they aren’t. and vice versa.
Sucks ass usually.

I’ve never blogged before.
I wonder how this will go.

Hmm… I have a math project to do, a APUSH test to study for, and two friends to fake happiness for.

Even though I’ve realized one replaced me with her, and she is a whore.
She’s playing him. Hes in denial.
Shes just gonna end up right back with whatsisface.
I hope she breaks him.

I’m a bitter bitch, I admit it.
But I got hurt, and now I’m annoyed.
And sad…
I don’t know how to explain it.
But go ahead, think the worst of me, it doesn’t really change anything.

My dog is whining right now.
He needs to be quiet, I’m pretending to study.

I cut my hair for the first time in my entire life.
Well, really short anyways
I always cut off about a foot once a year
But this year its past my shoulders.
I’m gonna cut it even shorter soon.

Not that you care.

Listen to me, sounding all emo, and bitchy.
I apologize.
HI, nice to meet you.
I’m not really this sucky usually.

Lately my days have been great and my nights have been shit, and that tends to affect what I write at one eighteen in the morning.

When I should be asleep, or finishing my chores, or doing homework.
Not talking to my girlfriend and blogging.

What’s up? I’m Emma, I’m 15 right now, and I’m gay.
I don’t eat meat, I’m allergic to latex, citric acid ( most fruit ), milk, and peanuts.
I’m a fairly happy person, but my moods change a lot.
I’ve moved like 14 times since I was born, and don’t really like the town im in right now, but im stuck for another year, so I’ll deal.

I love art, I’m pretty intelligent, I am going to join the peace corps after a few years of college and then go on to become a photographic journalist and do pieces like Lisa Ling.

I love my sister ( the rest of my family too ), and my best friends.
Music is everything.
I am addicted to the internet.
I chew on random things.

Add me on myspace or facebook.
Emma Marie Tracy
Myspace.com/80813118

Hopefully you’ll like one of my next blogs.

I have stuff to put up from all the way back in 7^th grade.

I pinky swear im much more fun than this.

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